I was on cure zone the other day and I realized there are so many people going through this same heartbreaking condition. I am amazed that so many people feel exactly what I have feel, and been where I have been, and are where I am.
It gives me strength and inspires me continue to encourage and to write.
One thing Ive struggled with is being cruel to myself over this thing I can not control. Tmau really triggered my inner wounds and turned into full blown self loathing.
I did not feel beautiful
I did not feel desirable
I felt deeply unworthy of good things
I tortured myself emotionally with blame and shame for tmau when in reality I didn't ask for it. At the time I didn't even know what it was!I had no idea their was a condition called tmau.
I barely thought I had the right to exist because of the harsh ways people interacted with me because of tmau
I was utterly heartbroken over feeling my joy, social life and confidence slip through my fingers.
I will not put on a front....sometimes those feelings still arise. But, let me tell you what I know NOW!
I am beautiful, because I am human. I have eyes filled with soul and so do you!
I am not alone in this struggle with tmau, so many other people struggle with the same feelings, aches, and fears.
I do not need to feel shame over something that I can not control! I can only do my best with the knowledge of tmau I have.
Other people are just people. They have problems too, and I am not less than anyone!
God bless you readers.
With love,
Black Rose
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